Theres a storm coming...

The end or the beginnin of an end? Does it matter?? Really? I'd rather not give a fuck either-way..cuz either-way we're fucked anyway. As it turns out,there's been a lot of predictions sayin(or have said)come 2012, WE(the entire human civilization)are gonna go do the "Great gig in the Sky" or... to put it rather bluntly,We're Done! And since this feels way more "optimistic"...I think i'm gonna side up with them Mayans.Its the END of the world..and truth be told,I'm lookin forward to it.
If you've been followin this blog from the very start,I musta mentioned it a couple of times,that I'm waitin, for what ..I have no clue....but the feelin never goes away,this feelin that something's comin just gets stronger and more "urgent" everyday.Like a trapped rat,it's been gnawing my insides tryina rip its way out.It's almost like everything in my life has been leadin me to this and wotever it is,it's almost here.

And I, I just stand here waiting.....unable to move...as clichéd as a deer caught in head-light beams...and I wait..anticipating, fucked and scared shitless...but I wait.I'm pretty sure I ain't the only one who feels this....so if they say the world's gonna end...well... Hallelujah, maybe this is it,right? I could't care less,fact is.. I feel better when i think about it.
I'm not suicidal or mental (altho many have expressed their doubts), no,don't confuse it with that,this is just sumthin I have to look forward to cuz nuthin-else is worth the wait.I think the pointlessness of "everything", the very concept of "being" has finally got to me,this malady of emotions,this vicious loop of un-understandability...this fakery,FUCKERY ..well,sumone or sumthins gotta put an end to it.Sometimes,I think I've lost the will to survive,ya know,the ability to believe in a higher power,and I've most definitely lost my faith in humanity.I understand now that we are nuthin but a freak accident,a coincidence of colossal dimensions, no doubt about that.There ain't no-one lookin out for us,how can there be...when we don't even look out for each other? when we can't see past our own miserable selves?? We've failed to realize that the only "God" we could ever depend upon was the person standin next to us....and look at us now,look what we've done...we killed our brothers,raped our sisters and burned our parents.We wallow in hate and live in constant fear....and based on what? A few imaginary lines scribbled on a map,the color of skin,accents,customs,the amount of money we have? I played my part in this mayhem and it shames me...I've always known that.All accusations of hypocrisy...I accept.
Sure we're "Human" but we ain't "being" because "to be" is "to live" and we sure as shit ain't "living". We died a long time ago....we killed ourselves. What remains of us now is a hollow shell, a vague dream,we're breathin the dying breaths.
It ain't gonna be long...theres a storm comin.
I fucked up, you fucked up,we fucked up
....didn't we?