(Definition:
zorbing noun
/ˈzɔː.bɪŋ/US pronunciation symbol/ˈzɔːr-/ n [U]
an activity in which someone rolls down a hill in a large transparent plastic ball)
Another sleepless night.Back hurts like a bitch and why wudnt it?How long have I been awake?Tried readin,cudnt do it! Tried sum crosswords,head almost exploded.Tried eatin even.Just feel bloated now.Being sober is such a pain ,isn’t it? Being sober gets you thinkin.And dat aint a good thing,cuz it gets you thinkin but it still can’t help you think straight. Its not like I’m sober by choice, I’m sober by reason…I just don’t enjoy trippin like I used to. When you do somethin long enough,it gets boring.Thats the “exit”cue, I think.
Now Im not THAT dumb either(its what I’ve convinced myself of).Sure,tripping was getting boring but dat wasn’t enuff to get me off it.No,I needed “inspiration” and ,damn, I got a shitload and an extra serving of just dat.In the days that followed, I got the shit kicked outta me by four guys (all high too)and ended up with a ruptured eardrum.It’s healed now but ,man ,my ego is FUCKED. Those pricks sure knocked the chip off my shoulder for real good.The trippin dint stop there tho, a few days later to commemorate the ocassion of being dumped (yet again) I carved two new “love” lines into my left palm cuz the one I already had wasn’t doing me any good!! How stupid can I get? I leave the answer to your imagination. Self pity is self destruction and I’m aces at it.
But comin bak to right now ,Do I miss the trips? Damn right ,I do…but I still have I life ive got to live (whether I like it or not) and although the pharmaceutique numbess and distilled dreams that trippin brings seems so alluring I gotta move on,achy back and all.Yea,yea,yea… “…but it’s a good thing to be sober ,etc ,etc ..so on and so forth”.I’ve heard it all before so stuff it.I’ll tell ya this..being sober is so fuckin overated.It’s just as shitty as shit can be.
Man,I wish those four dumb fucks were bak..maybe they cud beat me senseless this time……
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